So besides living every day life, I think I'm crazy. Seriously, I think there is something wrong with me. I'm not going to say why because I just don't feel like it. But maybe I will. I sometimes feel like really emotional to where I would cry for no reason. (maybe there is a reason, but I just can't stop crying) And when I get mad, I get super angry, sometimes. Other times I'm just normally mad, but other times I feel so much rage inside me.

Grr. I really think something is wrong and I don't care if there isn't anything. There has to be something. I'm tired of being this way and I'm going to try with all my everything to change. I really don't like it. From what I can remember, I've always been this way. I've always had an attitude and knew I could get really angry. But now, it just seems like too much. Its like I'm the Hulk or something. (Ha) But yeah really, I just get so angry for no reason. Well there is a reason, but it isn't a good enough reason to go ballistic on someone. I mean geez. Whenever I am going ballistic it is like someone else takes over and I just want to be so angry. I'm selfish, I know this, and this little fact adds on to the craziness that is me. I stay angry until I get what I want or the person does what I want that I'm mad at. It's bad, I know. Other times I could simply just let everything go and not be so mad. I like that part of me.

So, this is what I'm going to do.

I'm going to think twice before I get super hulk angry mad. :) Maybe it'll work or not. But you better be damn certain that I'm going to try.

You must be thinking, "You're eighteen, why haven't you tried changing before?" (Or you could not be thinking anything at all) Well, to tell you the truth, I've never once wanted to change so badly then I do now. There is a reason and I'll do anything for that reason. Of course, if you have read any of my other posts, you would see that someone is my world. That he is everything to me. I do get super angry with him and I wish I have never done that. He still loves me even with the craziness that comes with me. I've always wondered who would ever put up with me? Well, I think I found my answer and my one and only.

He is laying right next to me right now, sleeping. I look over at him and I'm just filled with all this love and happiness that he makes me feel. I see how cute he is when he is sleeping which makes me smile. No one has any idea how he makes me feel. Well now you know or at least get the picture.

-Navajo Girl