Emotional Break Down

Is that a good reason to not go to school: Emotional Break down? I think it is because school is the one that is cause these emotional break downs. I don’t even want to write about it, but I feel like I have to, so I can let it all out. Fail. I don’t want to fail. This morning I cried so much, I thought I wouldn’t have any tears left soon!

The reason why I cried so much is because the pressure and the stress just hit full force because I let my guard down. Usually, I just hold it all in and ignore the hard stuff. I’m a horrible person, I know. I shouldn’t be ignoring stuff that I know I need to do. See! I’m so horrible because I know I need to do important stuff, but I can’t bring myself to do them.

I wish things were better and I know things could be worse, but they aren’t. So whatever your face. People may have it worse, but I;m not that person, I’m me and living MY life. So if you have something to say then say it because either way, I don’t care. My mom’s friend told me a story that was suppose to make me feel motivated and it didn’t. I was just like okay, good for your son. i DON’T CARE. Of course, I didn’t say I didn’t care to her. I didn’t even say anything back. Ha.

In some ways, I can be so much meaner and have an even bigger attitude, but now, I hold it all in. I’m learning on how to make things better by just stopping and thinking it through. This morning, I couldn’t even walk across the parking lot to get to the bus stop to go to school. I couldn’t EVEN MAKE MYSELF DO IT. I came back inside, went to the bathroom, and cried. I didn’t really think, all I kept thinking was, “I don’t want to go to school…”

I was also thinking “please don’t make me…”

I’m stupid.

-Navajo Girl