Patient or Impatient

I'm not usually patient. I can never be patient. I'm impatient. Waiting for Lucas, is making me learn how to be patient. Or it's probably just making me be patient because that is all I can do right now. Other than that, I still feel impatient and there is no way I can ever be patient and I have no clue what I'm talking about at all right now.

I just have that feeling of writing again. There is no reason or point that I have to make in this writing. I stayed home from school yesterday and today. It made me realize how much I can't change the fact that I miss too many days of school. I always missed a lot, and this year I sort of had a goal to miss less days I have ever missed, but that's a fail. I guess I sort of disappointed myself and I should of known that missing school is probably what makes me want to keep going there because I need a break here and there from that crazy world I don't like. There is no absolute reason why I want these last days of high school to go by slow. I absolutely hate high school. I just want to get my diploma and get out of there.

I want to graduate and live my life with Lucas already. The whole idea of being on my own with Lucas is an amazing thought. I was talking to my friend, Lavonne, the other week and she feels that way I do: Want to get out of High school. We're both tired of it. I'm really tired of it. Ugh!

Anyway, lol, I want to make it clear that high school was fun, but there is just a certain amount of it that you can take. lol, if that makes sense.

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